New Laptop

     Hey folks , i just got my new laptop. I m very happy . Although this is mini laptop but i m happy , because now i can online and blogging . I have a lot story want to share  you all . I think some of you interested with my blog . Anyway thanks for visiting and leaved me a comment .

        Although this is mini laptop but this laptop very light  . The weight is only 1.2kg . can you imagine . before my 14 inch laptop very heavy . Every time when i carried , my hand will pain and tired. but now  no more pain and tired ...huhu...2nd this laptop have 250Gb Hdd . yeaaa ....this make me like this laptop....mmmm... The rest about this laptop is ....webcam ,wifi, Bluetooth  ..... The salesman also help me install window 7 . so now i'm using window 7 .

        I really hope i will not trade in my laptop again .i must spent my money wisely and save my money for my school fee.

I'm poor

     I thinked i'm poor lol , every day take taxi  and i don't have car . All my friend have care , only me don't have care . Sometimes they saw me waiting for taxi . They only hons me . I really shy lol . Waiting for taxi for long time . Really really shy . everyone have car .

       Really dangerous for me to take taxi , especially at night . Today i took taxi . The driver is malay .  I don't want to take , but i don't have choice . no more taxi ... is too late , and if i call taxi from the call centre , i have to pay extra rm2 .  I'm really scared while in the cab .he looked like want to robb me .... i realy scared .  I just keep pray and i promise myself. Next time i willing to pay the rm2 . rather than robb  or anything bad thing happes to me . My life and money is more important .

     I hate lol , yesterday when i took taxi from kl central . The indian guy ask me extra rm2 ... hey  mamak  ...lu ingat i byk money ...i byk miskin ....that why naik taxi ...tak de duit nak belajar drive and buy car ...you see how poor am i .

     I want collect money buy car ......i want get my licence as soon as possible ....

Tired

       Today i really felt tired .....tired ......i have to replaced my friend job.  .....really really tired  ...many customer today .  I no chance do my own job because i help my friend. Am i stupid? I always help people , bt they not help me and some of them treat me as stupid girl ....

      Why my life like this.....i really tired tired ....this is my fault......sometimes i'm too humble , too kind  and too good.This give them chance to bullied me .

    Dont mix with the person who don't know appreciate you,  make  friend and mix with those  who appreciate you . 

         Life i short and  life is test from GOD .

I Drunk

     Last night my turn drunk , my head still pain and blur blur , hard life for me , this is my job i have to drink .
working is not easy , no job easy and every job must have effort .

     Yesterday i rest in the mamak , i really drunk , thanks GOD save me last nite , when i rest at mamak , got stupid arab @ iraq man disturb me , wtf lancio  arab and iraq , bastard better you died , poor of your mother and father born bastard son like you .

      I want to call my friend but i leave my handphone in the shop , poor of me , how come i can forgot (maybe i'm too drunk), i hope this will not happen to me again ,now i just understand why cindy said she is cheap , because our drink for money , well , we're not like prostitute lol ....whatever prostitute is a job also ...not everyone can do it .

Missed My Childhood

                       I really missed my childhood , GOD can i go back to the time?

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     I dont have a happy chilhood memory , i came from a poor and not prefect family . But i'm lucky compared to some other people . My dad is pilih kasih ...he have is play man ...he have many woman outside there  and got many  children ...so mean i have many step siblings.

      Last night i really angry with my brother but after i saw above photos , i suddenly remember our childhood memory , i suddenly want cry  and missed them alot ....since i was 17 leaving the home .....i seldom go back there ...i just go back 2 times ...really sad .
  
       when i was kids , my second brother and me follow my  mum went to farm , that time my young brother havent born ...i seldom quarrel with my brother . we love each other ..that  time we really poor . and my dad not with us , he with his new wife . ....i still remember got one times we dont have rice , my mum said we dont rice to eat  soon because no money ...( Mum i really missed and love you) , when we dont have rice my mum will ask me go to our neighbour house ask rice ...the neighbour are my grandfather  ex workers  , Thanks GOD they give us some rice .

             I must do something and give my mum a good life .

With Love ,
Miss Casanova

My Mum

        Hi folk how you all doing ? got miss me d petite dude ? hohoho .....how was your life today ? hope everything fine. Yesterday i had a bad dream . I really scared . Not scared of Ghost but scared i will lost someone who i love and care . After i get  up from my dream i faster pray to GOD and hold my bible . I really scared . I think some of you exprienced it before right .

     Mmmm....i did i lot sins , i'm not holy in GOD eyes . please forgive me ...

        Yesterday around 7:20 pm   my dear mum sms me  and ask when i will go back for chinese new year ... then i called she and asking where  she now ?she told me she still in farm  waiting for my young brother to pick she go back ....but its too late already ..i really worried for my mother  and just keep pray to GOD . She asked me to call my dad , she said my dad looked like fell not well .mmmm but i dont know how to face my dad and no topics for both of us .

      After one hour i called back my mum , she said she still in farm ....what The Fuck ....what to my brother why she still not pick my mother .....the car is belong to my mum ....my mum paid the car every month but she not enjoy used the car . she give the car to my brother because she love my brother ....and my mum just take public bus when she went to farm ...i really pity of my mother ...my mum not enjoy her life ....i really want help she but i also not rich .....:(

          My brother just succeed fetch my mum around 9  but almost 10pm ....Oh my GOD why  and what happened to my brother ,,,, he is selfish .....he is stupid ...he help other people and become driver to other people but not able  to help my mother ...such are useless animals ....GOD i hope..mmm not hope i want become a good boy to and good society . I love them . please GOD

Orang Gemuk Rendah Diri & Diketepikan

    
      Gemuk .......salah sapa ...salah dirisendir sebab kuat makan, tak pandai control makan ,  nafsu kuat , waris keturunan dan takdir .... Bagaimanapula dengan yang kurus kuat makan  tapi masih kurus-kurus lagi . Mungkin nasib mereka baik kot ....daya metabolisme mereka active tak seperti C gemuk ....  :(

       Kanak-Kanak yang gemuk mungkin sering diejek dan buli oleh rakan sekolah .Kesannya mengganggu emosi kanak tersebut  dan menyebabkan mereka rendah diri . Waktu saya sekolah menengah ...saya sering dibuli oleh budak bajau dan suluk (sabahan ) ....mereka turut menggelar saya Rakishi (WWF) ahli gusti gempal  yang kacukan negro . Mereka tak sedar diri mereka ...sudah lah hitam , wajah pun hodoh dan pelajaran pun teruk masih nak menghina. waktu tu saya memang tak tahan  dan tertekan .Macam tak nak pergi ke sekolah itu .tapi saya terpaksa pergi juga .saya  asyik kena buli dan pernak beberapa kali budak lelaki anak bajau  menampar dan memukul saya ...saya nak lawan tapi mampu sangat ...sebab budak2 bajau tu ada geng ...terpaksalah kena pukul oleh mereka. Malahan pondan juga mentertawa  dan menghina saya ... Hairan juga saya ...(engkau tu pondan ,bukannya sempurna sangat)..... kesan ini menyebabkan saya rendah diri dan menjadi pendiam .

       Tapi kini semuanya berubah , saya menjadi semakin cantik .BigBeautiful Woman (BBW) walaupun badan saya tak gemuk sangat pada masa ini . tapi sikap rendah diri masih ada  dan adakala bila teringat  waktu lampau , saya sangat benci kepada mereka . Orang kampung tak tahu malu .

       Saya hairan kenapa  orang nak diskriminasi orang gemuk , kenapa orang gemuk tak boleh kerja ke ?apabila melihat artis gemuk yang dibubarkan contract kerana gemuk ...saya geram dan tiba2 menjadi tak ada keyakinan .Mereka tu cantik tapi gemuk kenapa nak pecat mereka . Dia masih mampu melakukan pekerjaannya .ish ish ...harap2  nanti orang yang pecat dan pandang rendah dengan  orang gemuk akan dapat rasa apa yang dirasa oleh orang gemuk macam kami .

                                 "Fat is not fault , Only you make it fault"

                                             "Fat is not sins "